2nd post of the day.. dunno whether its mi or wat.... m i juz trying to be selfish or....? i dunno..... have been wondering since earlier on.. wat is frens for?

whenever my "frens" asked mi for help.. i'll help whenever i can.. but when i asked them... im being ignored... my voice was nv heard at all.... y..? m i tt "small" that no 1 took notice of mi? or m i the xtra 1 from the start? ask the so call "frens" to come support mi n my other frens in khk tml.. excuses were given... nvm ba... since im not impt in the 1st place oso.. forget it ba..

is it juz so difficult to spend a little time to come watch a performance? its onli once per yr.. izzit tt hard? tix is $6.50.. not like asking u to pay $65.. izzit impossible to even fork out $6.50? i dun think so.. if u can spend $9.50 on movies during wkdays.. y not a $6.50? unless i noe got other stuffs to attend n cannot siam de jiu nvm... ppl hu spend $$ like water tell mi $6.50 very ex.. or is damn free everyday de say cannot come.. excuses excuses n more excuses.... worst excuse --> projs

anticipated so much towards the event.. yet no 1 does.. the world's chging.. or m i the onli 1 tts still standing on the same spot?

forget it.. mian qiang no happiness de.. den all dun come ba.. from today on i shall depend on myself le.. since no ppl oso care abt mi.. then abit no point.. do so many things onli let ppl say im a attention seeker.. wat for.. no point.. come to think of it.. no ppl really understands mi oso.. haha.. if tt's so.. then frens r juz entertainers when bored.. while classmates r juz solely for class works.... then cody? i dunno... seems like its getting lesser n lesser topic between mi n him.. seems to be caring for mi.. yet i felt nthing.. as thou everything died.. everything's.. so not like b4... zzz forget it..

probably i shld be dead long ago.. life's kinda getting meaningless recently.. probably doesnt even have a meaning in the 1st place.. its as thou im not existed haha... so.. y m i still alive? so ironic..

10:18 PM; unforgotten.Y

its tml!! its tml!!!!!!! khk is tml!!!!!!!! rmb to come support us @ grassroot club!!!!! 5 min walk from yio chu kang mrt nia!!!! rmb!!!!!!!!! tix sales from 3pm!! event starts at 4 pm n ends at 6.30 pm!!!!!! muz come muz come!!!!!

so happy yet so nervous sia.. its tml le.... finally the day has come.. haha.. muz rmb to come k ppl? thou i noe theres no ppl looking at my blog.. haha

going out on mon wif jean jie to town area get eureka 7 stuffs.. ^^ after tt get la corda d'oro's costume from rina~~ yea~~ so happy.. ^^ =D finally most of the stuffs is done le... haha.. ^^

6:57 PM; unforgotten.Y

today consider a happy day ba..

but hor.. oso got some suay things =.= this morn woke up at 8+.. went sch at 9.. then.. i went to the toilet at 1st floor.. cos today is CDS day for mi.. so i onli bring my art stuffs along.. which is a drawing block inside wif ALOT of things.. then i entered the cubicle... put my drawing block on top of the thing tt puts the toilet paper tt 1.... tt thing opened n my drawing block dropped on floor =.= then i picked it up.. my papers inside flew to another cubicle beside mi =.=.. then i decided to finish my business then go pick up my paper.. so i put the drawing block on floor...... n somehow my mp3 drop on floor.. n oso my hp.. i wonder how all those drop out from my pocket sia =.= then hor.......... when i stood up.. my comb dropped =.= like so suay sia.... keep dropping things.. luckily i keep chking my stuffs so nthing is lost...

after tt went to class....... was late for 30 min =x went into the class blur blur de cos dunno wat teacher toking =.= sibei jia lat.. after awhile then managed to understand wats going on.. then blah blah blah finally 3 hrs passed.... lesson ended!!!!!

went to the 6th floor to find a lab n print my APEL stuffs.. spent the whole nite typing tt 500 words essay.. damn stupid sia.. i read liao feel like vomiting.. LOL so positive tt they are so untrue.. omg.. im typing against my conscience >.< then.. i saw my classmate.. so i went in the lab.... on the comp.... which is infested by trojons =.= then... finally submitted the essay.. then i need to print out oso.... the gal sitting infront of mi was print.. so i waited.. n waited.. n waited.... tmdddd she print so many stuffs yet took her time foreva to print.. damn brainless sia.. then i onli wan print 1 page.. then waste my time waiting for her.. argh... then blah blah blah...

2.30.. met elie to discussed abt eureka7 cosplay stuffs.. then juz nice kura n evil came to find us.. so... discuss n walk walk ard till 6.30 like tt.. but actually.. nthing much is done =x juz settle wif the basic stuffs n meeting on mon to buy cloth.. haha..

went to meet dear at pasir ris..... waited till 8 like tt then he came.. damn sian sia.. -.-after tt took a cab down to his hse.. by the time already 9+ liao.. met charsiew for dinner 10+.. then they send mi to took bus... reach hm ard 12am... wanna die liao sia.. n i shld be slping now le..

so happy tt dear finally book out.. XD pray i can stay over at his hse on sat ba~ ^^

2:18 AM; unforgotten.Y

life sux recently.. wondering wats wrong to mi n my body... its as if its gonna collapse any moment.. dun ask mi y.. im not sure myself too..been in a foul mood recently.. seems like everything pissed mi off... haiz.. i noe i shld be slping now.. but i juz ate dinner.. nthing to do now so blog a little..

din blog yest.. was kinda lazy.. nthing much to blog oso.. but the gd thing was i manage to finish all my proj le..

saw a bugger in my channel earlier.. came in to look for mi.. n tts a farker which bugged mi recently on friendster.. used to noe this farker oso.. till things turn bad.. ignored him for quite a long time liao.. tot he dead oso.. anyway forgot abt the details.. juz rmb tt he is a farker nia.. lol..

something's really very wrong wif mi recently.. my left wrist is starting to get pain again.. dunno y.. old ailment i think.. backaches.. stiffs necks.. my hyperventilation seems like acting up quite recently oso.. feeling damn terrible... everything's getting worst.. mentally n physically tired.. could it be im eating 2 meals a day recently? kinda impossible.. cos its my usual habit to take 2 meals.. or is another reason tt im not sure myself oso? wat's really happen to mi..?

told him tt im not feeling well recently b4... he doesnt to care for even juz a little.. pissed wif him earlier on.. i noe i shldnt but i juz help it.. i felt damn hurt.. y.. i noe im selfish.. always wanting to rely on him.. but i guess i shld learn to be independent from now on ba... i'll try my best not to impose trouble on others oso de.. ^^

time to go slp le... 3.11am.. class at 10am tml.. guess will be rolling on bed for quite awhile before getting to slp.. kinda suffering from insomia recently.. my body's gonna.. die out soon i guess..

cody's 1st bookout: tml.. unsure of time..

2:52 AM; unforgotten.Y

so tired... -.- wanna slp le.. but... yawnz!!! too lazy to do anything... got to find time go arab n other place settle on eureka 7.. brainstorm quite alot today wif elie on the way home after khk.. =D was waiting for kura to come online since yest.. but.. both days nv see her =.= wanna ask her abt the eureka thingy de..

khk was fine today.. every1's slacking n all is very tired.. including mi.. din really sang well today.. haiz.. n oso din manage to do anything proj today.. so sianz.. pray i can do better on the day itself.. settle wif my hare hare yukai wif my fellow grp members today.. gonna practice hard for the dance step as well as training breathe.. else gonna die sia ~_~

was on fone wif my dear juz now n heard something very interesting stuffs said by his bunk mate.. "go slp lar cody!! go slp!!!!" lol.. n tt time was ard 9.45 like tt.. haha.. haiz.. cody's booking out on the evening.. sianz.. muz replan everything le..

anyway.. gd luck for all my stuffs.. i hope n.. I HATE SCHOOL! shall brainstorm further of the cosplay after tues.. n most imptly is my wig.. wonder it could be settle mah.. cos its so lastttttt min.. n wonder how im gonna pay sia T_T *broke* im a poor gal *cries..*

count down to cody's 1st book out: 5 days!

12:01 AM; unforgotten.Y

haiz.... so damn messy sia everything.. actually im so damn tired now n shld be in bed but im still in front of my laptop.. haiz.. everything's so packed recently.. hardly got anytime to slack but.. haiz.....................

damn stress of alot of things.. suddenly planned so many cosplays... wonder if i can manage them all.. esp when the projs r dueing... khk is coming..... so is cosfest.. really wonder if i can really survive on mah.... gonna take programming next sem.... when i totally failed in it....y they wan choose programming sia.. networking sounds so much nicer.. n ezier.. zzz programming is like.. wtf? yawnz..

so many cosplays added recently to cosfest...
- Suzumiya Haruhi de.. shld be completed by cosfest since im wearing it for khk..
- La Corda D'Oro - Hino Kahoko.. will be doing wif rina.. n she helped mi settled everything n will recieve the costume by next wk.... juz need to pay her nia.. shld be ard 80+
- Eureka 7 - Eureka.. a very last min decision wif elie.. my jie jie.. was on the way hm from khk rehearsals n was showing her the pix of my "planned" cosplay.. then juz nice saw eureka7 de folder.. haha then she eyed for a char called anemone.. long pink hair gal.. costume's quite ez from 1 look.. while mine is a short teal colour hair.. costume looks..... quite ez.. but i wonder if my skill is gd enuff to do alone n not bother my mother too much ~_~ n oso haven brainstorm abt diff parts of the costume.. dunno whether can get the wigs in not mah cos its very very rush oso.. hope can complete by cosfest ba.. wonder how much im gonna spend this time sia.. haiz..

let mi planned out my schedule abit for this mth.. thou i noe i wun keep to this schedule tightly.. lol

24 june - train hard for khk.. discuss abit of the eureka cosplay wif jean jie oso..
25 june - doomsday.. (start of sch)
26 june - dsag (almost done.. left report n abit of programming.. shall ask classmate to help on mon...) / cmsk4 (haven do anything.. shld do during khk tml ba..) proj due
27 june - apel due... (asking classmate how to bullshit oso)
28 june - i think i shld start sewing the sch logo for suzumiya haruhi.. n others to complete..
29 june - see if elie free to do out wif mi to settle stuffs?
30 june - meet dear dear!!!! n train hard for khk...
1 july - KHK!!!!!! bz whole day!!!! muz come support esp red team!!
2 july to 6 july - chiong costume..
7 july - go cosfest 1st day.. still deciding on the character.. either la corda d'oro or haruhi..
8 july to 13 july - costume chionging day again..
14 july & 15 july - cosfest 2nd n 3rd day..
16 july.... another new life.. haiz... so sad

btw... dear's booking out on fri after 5pm...cant go out wif him on tt day.. T_T

n.. wish all the best to mi ba..

count down to cody's 1st book out: 6 days!

12:34 AM; unforgotten.Y

woot! in sch doing proj wif classmates now.. =D finally done wif my sssd.. quite ez since there is a prog liao.. juz editting nia.. fark sia..... T_T

course selection is today... wonder which elective to choose.. programming or networking? both got business sia.. die le die le.. haiz.. blog again at nite ba.. =D

4 more projs to go! then juz realised.... opsy is due on week 11... so..... 3 PROJS LEFT FOR THIS WK!!!! WOOOOOOOOOO i shld slack~ *rots*

count down to cody's 1st book out: 7 days

3:19 PM; unforgotten.Y

wah.. fark sia.. my mind's totally's blank!!!!!! >____< most of my proj due on tues.. wonder how im gonna survive thru the next few days.. im so messed up... I NEED HELPPPPP T_T

fri going sch bug frens to help.. sat n sun khk.. gonna bring lappy there liao.. 1hr transport oso can do abit of stuffs ba.. i hope? skip lunch n all? haiz.. maybe buy a bread n dong whole day.. see 1st ba.. mon... omg.. 1st lesson jiu got thing submit.. frens say very ez.. i hope can finish by tml ba.. then at least got time to do other projs.. think shall start wif the reports all those later...

juz to sort things out..

SSSD (submission by mon.. latest fri) - time conversion.. need do in sch.. getting codes from my frens to edit..

DSAG (submission on tues) - C# programming.. need to take fren's soft copy 1st.. tt 1 is given by the teacher.. but haven do anything.. sianz

OPSY (submission on tues) - research on the OS Sun Solaris 10.. regarding its Networking support n Security model [wtf is this? D:] haiz.. think gonna do abit of the research b4 i go sch n get killed tml ba.. [my class de char bor all very scary!!!! T_T]

CMSK4 (submission on tues) [fark.. y r there so many projs due on tues? =.=] - writing a proposal on my "wonderful" newly created toy to help disabled child [izzit? D:] n i muz DRAW to gif visual aids?!?!? wtf?! if possible then do this later ba..

APEL (submission on wed) - value reflections.. yet to read the qns.. 500 words minimum de report.. think i shld do this later ba.. sounds ez for this..

WWNK - weeee found out theres no proj for this.. so heck care~

Colour n Combination - when got time then complete both pieces ba... im still wondering y i took up this cds when i failed art =.=

hmm.. so i'll be free again since tues ba... haiz.. Y M I ALWAYS LIKE THIS!! HOW TO BE MORE HARDWORKING?!?!?! tons of costumes yet to be done.. so messed up.. so lazy to even move..... haiz.... yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy T_T SAVE MIIIIIIIIIII

count down to cody's 1st book out: 8 Days

6:27 PM; unforgotten.Y

haiz.... so damn sianz.... 2nd day of this blog.. haiz.. i juz realised next wk sch reopen le... AHHHHH n i haven do any of the projs!!!!!!! zzzzz let mi count abit..

- Apel (Value Reflection) (i have no idea wtf is this..)
- DSAG (omg.. i hate programming.. zzz)
- OPSY (i think there is proj for this.. but.. wat? o.o?)
- SSSD (no idea for this as well)
- CMSK4 (report writing.. dunno wat to write sia..)
- WWNK (is there any proj for this? D:)

shit.. after looking at all these.... I THINK IM GONNA FAIL THIS SEM!!!! AHHHHH~~~~ tts all my modules this sem sia!!!!! so many projs.. so short time.. HOW TO FINISH!!!!!!! omg omg omg omg T____T life is a torture man... haiz.... i wan cry le.. save mi some1!!!!!!!!!!!!!

count down to cody's 1st book out: 8 days!

12:27 AM; unforgotten.Y

12:04 AM; unforgotten.Y

woot! finally started my own blog.. finally gonna stop spamming at cody's blog le.. damn tired sia.... been doing the whole day juz wif the layout etc.... feel so dumb sia =.=;; yawnz... anyway.. 1st post.. update again.. this is juz a testing post.. whoever wanna link mi hor.. juz post in the tagboard.. =D or tell mi in msn if u noe mi.. ^^v

11:42 PM; unforgotten.Y

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